After the recent events regarding school, my hatred grew and grew until it exploded
I wrote hatred filled stuff on blogs and Facebook
and have hateful thought and ideas in my head
Later I thought it was kinda getting out of hand
So I started to change
I stopped playing violent video games (Watched other play)
I stopped watching violent movies (for a short period of time)
I stopped listening to music that gets me pumped up and started to listen to
some really nice Piano Classics (Yiruma)
and I started to think more positive
The results...My Hatred seems to have gone down
I feel more lighter and calmer
but it all changed
It seems that the Society wants me to be angry and hateful
I calm myself and life throws shit at me and gets me mad
I started to hate things again
Just when I finally calmed down
I seriously need to punch someone in the face...
Even now I am trying to calm down but nothing is helping...
I am Jack's Hatred for Everything...
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I feel rather hypocritical in suggesting that you should calm down, because I myself have had hateful memoirs of my own. All I can say is that you should try to let it go. I hate saying "New Year's Resolution" but the thing is people really should have one. I hope I can inspire you with this because what I'm about to say is true. I am going to only do one thing; look at the brighter side of things. You don't know me very well, but many of my relatives do, and they can all tell you that I have a dark pessimistic mind. I too discovered that this is really getting out of hand, hence, I have decided to try and let it go. It's time to look to the brighter things in life rather than the bad. I understand that many bad things have happened to you, but I hope that you will not loose your hope. I hate to quote Amy Tan but as long as you have hope, you can survive anything.
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